Tuesday, August 23, 2005
LAG.
ARGH. LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.not lagging in internet connection though. lagging in school work. chem die liao.. phy die liao.. these 2 both lag by 2 chaps. 2.2=4. plus mechanics halfway done tutorial 3 and 4.. while reduction formula lag by a few questions. its nt little - its damn alot. it takes only 1 question to kill you.
this morning Pam ran her 2.4km. tried to find her after class.. but couldnt spot her on the track. this means that she's too fast. fast runner.. her 2.4 timing was 14.15 i think.. uncertainty there la. that's like my last time running mark. for guys you fail till cham cham. then had oily chicken cutlet with gen and caryn during break. then she gt confused over YO and PhilYouth and stuff. sian right. ponned phy lecture to study abit in band room.. later for mrs.lim's lesson. then TK missed out the part on bringing Gen's notes from bandroom. TK was already putting down his phone when TZ asked him to bring it. as a result, gen became angry with him and dont know why me too. lol. im mr.innoncent. then i was trying to suan her throughout the lecture then she gt so irritated with my words and TK's laughter that she decided to shout for twain. not literally.. she wrote "TWAINNN!". its a hate letter she wrote for twain to inform him that we "BULLY" her. then she wants to steal our notes dont know for wad. change topic la. no link.
GP lesson was damn sian. forgot Jon Ng ask his friend buy chicken with egg burger for me. then they squished it and wrote things on the plastic bag (-.-)" forced myself to eat that down.. then did compre halfway go lao sai. so watery. then anyhow chiong through AQ. gt a feeling i'll fail. song bo.. fail GP all the way. sounds like my combined humans. result from sec3 to sec4. haha.
mr. Ng's lesson was crazy. he do so fast till i buay tahan. he go through question like the speed of my copying. then after lesson he revealed that he took maths in Uni.. then hao lian he top in class.. his class gt 3 national bballers.. arts subj all a1.. madness. clever fella.
ate lunch with Pam again.. felt that she didnt wanna talk to me or something. dont know leh maybe i think too much. ate fishball noodles.. the stall which i caused the guy get scolded. saw YC LK and luther. then walked back lo.. go for class again. chem tutorial nvr do again.. but she went through chem mock spa. i gt lvl 7. then wei xiang was complaining why my spa always so zai. where gt sia.. *humble*. james chia halfway msg me for lian wei's no. maybe he wanna bang me. physics tutorial kenna shot again.. cause i nvr do again.. then ms.tan banged me too. ouch. then was chinese do nothing lesson. nice lor.. then went home straight. cause Pam is having sectionals till 6! omg la.. now have sectionals i also dont know for wad.. nvm la nt my business. went home prac.. prac halfway almost fell asleep. im so shagged dont know by wad.. these few days not very well for me..
ate dinner.. i asked the name of the fish. red snapper. lots of meat. thats nice..
gtg do my EOM due tml liao.
bye blog.
Monday, August 22, 2005
Ouch. No blog?
argh. let me discuss why im in pain. 2ulcers, 1 deep into the gum, the other right at the side and front of my lip. its gonna merge with another smaller 1 to become a huge 1. its deep. and i gt it cause i bit my gum while i ate da bao mac's from kallang tt night after YO. liddat la. pain ful. plus i gt 3 cracks on my lips, discovered last night. my lips are super dry. so i used the gel Pam gave to me.yeah.. today didnt study for chem mock spa.. but learnt how when i copied answers from wei xiang when i didnt do my extra practice questions on gas laws. then did it during chem lor.. sat right in front nxt to mrs.chua again. then after tt she go thru tutorial which i nvr did since chemical equilibrium. die la.. f maths reduction formula also dying liao. how sia. still planning to get an A for f maths for promos. madness. but possible.
darrell passed me the TOFU cd today.. maybe gonna watch later. but he didnt bring the DOTA cd, which i wanted to install and try out today. nvr tried it ever b4.. so i dont know la. can add a new game to my comp which is quite accomplishing. yeah.. supposed to go play LAN with my class on sat but went to eat with Pam instead. liddat lor.. nvr get to play at all. then i thought that it was Dawn of the Ancients but its Defence of the Ancients. haha lame me. la-me. then raimi suan me la.. then i suan him back.. he owes me 40cent drink cause lim poh suan didnt call him to read passage during GP. and GP remedial boring cause my topic sentences didnt link back to the question. but i think today GP lesson 1st time i so responsive and alive.
oh ya this wed gt potato party held by Delta. raimi said gt potato chips, mashed potato, potato salad, and more i think. i wonder why i didnt join house comm and listen to TK. should have predicted myself nt in band comm. then now i gonna leave TJ with no records. or maybe black records. landing up in principal's office during 1st 3 months cause of bad discipline. how often you get some1 so skilled like that. =X
then sent Pam home.. sensed her unhappiness within.. although i thought i knew the reason but i didnt assume. so i asked and asked lor.. the she as usual asked me wad do you think.. but ok la like me liddat. then i asked whether was it cause i didnt spend enough time with her.. then she took a long time to reply me. i gt it right.. haiz im so busy. almost every1 in the whole world is telling me to stop something and concentrate or i'll die. now i belive. i want to get at least 2 As for promos which somewhat seem impossible. a merit for grade 5 exam which i might possible get. need time to revise.
let the time i spend with Pam be 5x.
let the time i spend on studies be 2.5x.
let the time i spend on tuba be 2.5x.
a mathematical equation, it is. major in mathematics, NUS? its alot of time. then ppl will start saying that i only have 24hrs a day. yeah i know. then i realised that my communication with Pam somewhat resembled my parents. somehow, seems like.. same way same type. my dad's theory of atoms:
2atoms attracted to each other, so close. but then the electrons have more frequency of clashing and started having sparks around due to collision. then friction between the 2 atoms is produced. so, to minimise this stay abit more away from each other, leave a gap.
this theory resembles a relationship. think its true la..
anyway goin to eat soon.. have to prac tonight, study.
cya blog.
Sunday, August 21, 2005
many things happened.
let's talk bout yesterday. didnt get to update my blog.. went home late..woke up at 9+ supposed to be 8.30. nvm.. prac till 10 then went to bathe.. then left home at 10.15am.. chiong to CCAB. then PIE jam.. then dad didnt go by stevens rd, to adam rd and missed 2 junctions.. then reach CCAB at 10.50am. then go in say sorry im late. then mr.hoo said
"you aren not late. you are very late." <----------bwg.
then sit down play.. play till listesse tempo then mr.lim ask me replay.. then stop then replay.. jump to fig.K and play.. then jump to maestoso. super disappointing. missed the G and high C. wtf la. then after tt mr lim said,
"bad, its really bad. i've never heard such a performance in my whole life,seriously."
mr hoo said,
"i know you're changing your embrochure. i think you need to put in a little more effort. cause changing your embrochure is a big thing."
mrs wong said,
"you jc1 right? if you cant get to main by the end of this yr im afraid you have to leave."
liddat lor. and this sounds like AMI or Singapore Idol. just that im not live on tv like william hung. while dad wanted to turn to orchard road at CCAB entrance he almost knocked into a white RAV4 JR. guess wad. its M.LAW SIAO. msged him to say sorry. lian wei took my dad's car to orchard makan.. then we went home.
then went to eat lunch with Pam, saw Adi at the bus stop, Pam signed up for student's membership.. zhun zhun $30. then ordered chef's salad and black pepper ribs. 1st time in history we finished everything. nice. then sent her home. sian lor.. i know she's sian about me not spending enough time with her.. upset.. disappointing i was supposed to watch wedding crashers with her. sorry.. mom didnt allow me to. then she complain im busy.. sorry.. then went up see hams.. did some aural stuff with her.. my singing sucks. then went home lor.. i also know she not happy. but wad can i do? haiz................
went home mapled awhile then did my "black book" on Mr.Ng. kitty tan say better do and i finally heeded her advice. i think its better to do, better for revision. then went paragon eat DING TAI FENG. then ate usual stuff.. xiao long bao and spinach with garlic.. liddat.. went to walk find bags. my bro went to crumpler shop. nice la the bags.. stylo milo. the price also abit stylo milo. haha reminds me of andrew's birthday wallet costing $80+. yeah.. but i cant bear to spend money on such expensive stuff. i nt rich kid. then tried to find the $100 bag again.. the shop really gone. bo bian.. went home.. then mom say she bad mood. call me into her room counsel me. long lecture. sian half. say cope with stuff trying to relieve my stress make me less frustrated and stuff. liddat la. then msged Pam.. she seems so upset with me. haiz wanna die. then went to finish my 2nd chap, AP & GP.. while the 1st was partial fractions super easy la. then slp.
Today,woke up at 8.15am.. dress up go church.. and some group of students in Brunei played with the ouija board. demons broke out all over and still increasing. the Sultan encountered a demon-possesed girl. the news dubbed as "mass hysteria". still, didnt allow the Churches to come in. Sermon was on 'Wisdom'. knowledge, and wisdom. seriously.. ask for Wisdom and it shall be given to you. and sang 2 beautiful songs.. remembered 1...
Jesus I believe in you,
Jesus I belong to you.
You're the reason that I live,
The reason that i sing,
With all I am.
yeah.. its beautiful.. mom quarrelled with dad again.. over my bro's stuff.. i diam diam la. no point interferring. then went over kia chai's house for PW again.. played CS, then redid my chap4 and the question analysis.. alot of work today. then went out eat 5star chicken rice.. mapled awhile.. now blogging.
didnt talk to Pam these few days.. die la. I'll die.. though im msging her now. haiz. wad to do? i dont know..
think i go do my PW chap 4 again la..
cya blog..
nights..
Friday, August 19, 2005
Daddy's back.. back again..
some food's stuck to my teeth now. just ate dinner.. yeah.. lots of chicken.. gt steamed fish=) then bro ate porridge cause his teeth pain. dont know why he wants to brace his teeth also. i shall speak of my day...this morning.. 02/05 watched the 2.4km run.. this guy batch damn zai la.. run damn fast.. average end at around 12mins leh. omg la.. when they 12 min i still halfway thru my last round i guess. still remem my own 2.4. ee. then the guys batch. gt this bloody guy i hate alot. POSER. ACT COOL. ATTENTION SEEKER. wad's his problem? the body looks so fit. but then the brain is the size of an ant. run so slow.. bo liao. then he tried to be the slowest lor.. lame kia. then he run 7rounds somemore? wad's so cool bout that. waste time waste energy wasting his own life away. then on his last round i still remem he did a somersault which he almost fell. can see cause he's the only one left on the other side. so lame. come back talk to his friends still say "haha i ran 7rds leh." then hafiz bastardised him.. ask him teach him somersault. lol. we were all shouting poser and stuff when he reached the end. argh wadeva la. he's such an irritant.
yeah.. pw maggie goh praise our group. miraculous? amazing? wonderful? omg? yeah.. it happened. first time in history.. the world started raining men.. <-- no link. but then the chapter 4 done by me.. haiz she said need more work. ended school with chinese today..allowed us to go do anywhere. went to hub tried to watch TOFU. but then cannot and not fun cause no sound wad. so sian lor.. watch junhe talk with no sound. then after tt darrell and gang went over to eat while i went to find Peh in the library. then did the chi compo awhile.. then darrell came.. then he did tt time question me. then i thought i wrote out of topic la. then went with Pam to eat.. quite troubled over the stupid essay la. then sent her back to band room.. then dont know how her packet of waterchestnut dropped to the floor. had to add stacks of tissue to clean it up. later gt ants i die=X then went back to library do chi again.. finally finished. anyhow do la.. hope i pass.
then 3+ tt time bro and mom came over pick me up.. chiong to VCH. then sign up for my ABRSM grade 5 theory.. and the queue was so short! i was surprised. liddat lor.. then carmen the musical was playing downstairs.. at the entrance of the SSO office. nice.. i want to watch. wonder when they ever gonna come to Singapore. then bro came pick us again the sent himover to SMU. then went home with mom.. fell asleep for abt 5min along the way.. helped her wipe the car glass cause she cant reach. lol. anyway went home mapled half an hour then my mom ask me prac. think she dont believe i cant do it. hate it when ppl look down on me. wad's her problem? then i didnt care i practise like mad.. all the way till dinner. then till now lor..
miss her. but then wad to do.. busy.. she's scolding me nowadays also dont know why la. haiz.
anyway jsut asked my dad to give me a 128mb thumbdrive. that's nice.
thus, tchow is going to practise and call Pam i guess. bye blog..................................................
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Physics SPA
omg la. i completely forgot that today gt physics spa. its freaky. luckily i brought some spa notes to study. pon mr.wong's lecture again.. think 3rd time this term.. on newton's second law? wad lame stuff again.. F=ma.. im still stuck at his tutorial 3 while he's already at tutorial 5. but then i still prefer integration. just remem yesterday attended NUS talk.. quite nice la.. gt maths department.. major in math. i should go.. haha.. then ppl shall call me Prof. Chow. PROFFESSOR you know. how often u get ppl calling you proffessor? maybe in my dreams la.. anyway heng i studied for SPA.. so shit my first point damn bloody out. then the rest said its a perfect graph. fine. but then think i'll get 7+. hope. the rest either forgot to multiply out the thing. the equation was.T(squared)= 4/c(h+ k(squared)/h)
hope i'll do well anyway. today went for YO.. nt bad la.. improved. but the point is that i took cab to CCAB with rachel and reached there at abt 5.45pm. crazy thats damn early. then go seminar room so paiseh gt CHIJ girls inside i think having lecture. theni tried goin SMU to eat but forgot close down. no ATM liao also. i'll remember this. and i tried goin to prata cafe. but they didnt accept NETS.. so fine lor. go buzz.. then saw jinxing.. long time no see.. improved. anway, thats the result of practising everyday i guess. and doing slurs.. ttz good. played sea sketches.. and eric lee took us today.. han solo nvr come.. then jinhao playing for both sessions of SSO open house. huihong gave up the opportunity to play. crap lor.. AP-face didnt come again today. lame sia. after that talked to Mark.. then realised he quit PhilYouth till Eric Lee came. not the strings one.. the Malaysia one. wadeva la.. heard he bringing them over to thai. anyway he said he scolded the committee till they bwg. nt bad la.. zai~
anyway now i'm home.. played maple abit while i ate big mac bought along the way at kallang. bathed liao.. supposed to do EOM. forget it la.. dont care liao. do another day hand in on Mon lor.. before that i called Pam while she was happily sleeping on the other side.. then mm here mm there.. as usual slpy.. in the end didnt get to talk.. haiz wad to do.. she's tired so am i.. yeah.. tired me. going to start studying for promos nxt wk. 2days left to assessment. dont give up.. never say die=)
anyway.. shall slp early tonight. night blog=)
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Band day..
Wad a tiring day.. left school at about 7+pm.. got band today. today play so so la.. at least better than usual.. perhaps because last few nights i did practise myself.. haiz today in band play so many things. so many different pieces. guess the best pieces were peace variations and gypsy dance. really interesting and nice. sec4s confirm can play la. cant play i chop.=Xthats good i guess. tiring day la.. pon civics today to listen to yao cong play in a recital. it was good.. eccentric dances. nt easy.. but think the sound didnt come out enough. well thats wad i think.. really.. maybe is the acoustics or the piece. too many technicalities cant bring out him well maybe. oh well.. nt for me to decide anyway.. his sound is brilliant. improved much alot since i last heard him play solos live.. really. better than his artunian and willson suite.
now im tired.. msged Pam but she didnt reply. and today i gt reprimanded by her cause i couldnt hear her call me. then she scold me say nvr listen to her so many times then dont wanna talk to me. exactly wad did i do man.. i didnt do it purposely? haiz dont know la. keep quiet is the best=)
assessment in 3day's time. wad to do?? practise la.. thats the answer. and i have YO tml night. how boring. and remedial till 5pm! omg la. wanna die. also i have to register my grade 5 theory tml or fri. and think fri i skipping band to prac for my assessment.. better la.. anyway nowadays band prac also test pieces only.. dont even know wad we gonna play or something for open house. die la.. no sax. no 1st tpt. how? anyway tried out the trio for tubas today. was crappy la.. sian.. but think practise can liao. dont mind playing that for fiesta though. and the anti-omm supposed to do banner for fiesta. but wads the title/theme of our fiesta? i dont know. so how? wait la. anyway more and more ppl's bday coming.. espec sept. have to prepare cake again.. use money.. im broke.
anyway go prac liao.. sorry blog for short entry today.. nitez=)
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Integration and Polynomial Test.
wah sian. today's test is crap la. half my polynomial question never do. then integration i thought damn easy but then a few parts also dont know how to do. sian la.. still thought can finally do well for something but nvr. sian lor. nt like sec sch gt my super pro math tutor teach me. and nt like me sec sch gt my super pro chem teacher to teach me. u cant have the best things all at a time i guess.today no pe.. that's good and bad. good cause no need exercise on such a hot day. bad cause i nvr get to exercise. body storing up fats and maybe nxt yr i might still get a bronze of fail. my 2.4 and pull up and SBJ must work la. if nt see you early in NS.. =) yeah.. then waited in band room for Pam till 5.15 when i tot is 4.30. then go home lor.. then like that.. think i disappointed her cause i didnt go see our babies. but then on the other hand i really damn bloody tired la. <-- wad's new? but serious wad.. nt lying also.. then tried to slp in bus.. but so uncomfortable. so coincidental saw marco.. my ex-02 dm on the bus.. then i went back to slp.. then woke up he disappear liao. sian lo.. nvr talk to him. then reach home msg Pam before i went to eat.. then play MS.. nt bad la.. last night half hr get lvl 5.. now get lvl8 liao.. ppl add me 'ChowThief' if you playing MS.. provided your list isnt full. yeah.. time check. 10pm! die la.. nvr do work.. but must go prac. sat's my YO assessment! 4 days left la.. jia lat. but still gonna play my Bb for half an hour later.. then call my girl.. think i shouldnt stay here liao. if nt no time to do things.
bye blog!=)
Freddi's Recital
oh ya.. have to say sorry to Twain for last min pang sei him.. supposed to go with him to Freddi's recital at NAFA today. but then didnt cause i was so damn tired.. although i really wanna go. haiz another chance wasted. remem him the other day asking me whether i wanna go then i said yes. then he didnt tell me the price (-.-)". which was actually 5bux. and yeah.. today go sch forgot bring money. cause i left my 40bux in the back pocket of my jeans.. my mom just helped me to take it out and its freaking wet. and my throat is suddenly burning now. damn painful. need to go grab a jug of water to put out the fire. anyway gtg do work.re-Good night blog.=)
GP sucks.
haiz. wad's new? i hate my GP teacher and the bloody subject to the max. man. really hate it. got picked at again in class by the infamous LIM POH SUAN. really sick of her. actually not only her.. my last GP teacher too FAYE TAN. still remem her first cold joke.. telling us her name is FAYE TAN not FAYE WONG. omg la.. bhb.. she and the mediacorp star gt a million lightyears difference. guess she should stop believing that she is pretty or something. and she's a backstabber. sent me and joel to the principal during 1st 3months and she so hypocrite. treat us so nice but at the back stab us. think she scared of us or something.yeah.. so continue for my day.. went to eat lunch with QP and TZ.. dont know where TK went though.. and Pam's lunchtime is not the same as mine on Mondays.. i must remem tt. then after tt chem lecture on ionic equilibria.. and i dont understand much la.. since chemical equilibrium. die lor.. physics and chem.. physics i nvr did my tutorials. then was mr.Ng's lesson.. yeah.. integrate and integrate and integrate. like f maths.. dont know why also.. just that i dont manage my time properly. and btw tml's my f maths test.. supposed to study now.. so i can prac later.. and watch tv.. but i haven't touched on polynomial equations and integration by parts yet. the rest is quite ok i guess.. my the other window is downloading maplestory.. so my comp. wont look so empty anyway. then after GP ended i went to do some topic sentences for 2 GP topics and went to wait for Pam in band room. but then i tried to call her a million times but no reply. so damn scared la.. thought she lost her phone.. no battery.. wad happpened to her or wad.. but in the end she ended late. i went to eat the $1.30 instant mee from bookshop which was nt bad.. then she came to look for me.. then went home lo. OH YA. i really dont know how to "hong" her. i no skill la.. dont know why too. i never learnt how to do tt in my whole life. yeah dont know how to make her happy.. in simpler words.
yeah.. thats abt it for my day.. supposed to go do some maths tutorials to gear up for tml's f maths test.. hope i pass and nt forget everything like the stupid vectors test tt day. wanna commit suicide tt day. yeah then must prac my tuba.. anyway havent named it yet. need to think of something to call it..
so i gtg.. mug.. practise.. watch tv.. call my dear.. slp. I DO LACK SLP. need tons of slp. so?
Good night blog.=)
in school..
good morning.. im in school now.. 10.57am now.. inside one of the com labs.. the space super squeezy.. buay tahan.. my leg so long that's why.. supposed to read through how to do our chem spa skill C.. about the gas stuff.. damn sian.. http://core.ecu.edu/chem/chemlab/exper10/techniques.htm <--- technique.jon ng sitting beside me.. both of us complaining that the words damn bloody small to read. had chicken stew for break with tz, tk & legend, gen, yi hern, his fren, twain, fifi, and anymore? cant remem la.. so bloody tired. woke up at 7.20am this morning. then my mama woke me up remind me to think about dropping one of my participating groups and stuff.. i know la ma. soon i guess.. mrs chua talking bout the beaker things i think.. supposed to do expt 12 later.. and think pam is in one of the other chem labs.. till then.. bye blog.
Monday, August 15, 2005
Sunday blues..
sunday blues.. another sunday..argh.. so damn difficult to wake up today.. mom tried to wake me up 3 times but didnt seem to work.. then i finally tried to get up and i did.. at 8.15. then as usual i laid back and slp awhile more.. then at 8.20 i woke up. then went to church.. and sermon was about "Finishing the Work." Its just so true.. God's glory will only descend when our work has complete, not before. And the job for me? I have to find time to speak with God.. walk with him and let Him reveal wad is His will for me.
Then after that chiong home with mom.. not forgetting to buy mac's breakfast for ourselves and my bro.. then wake him up. supposed to drop him off at SMU but he like nvr seem to come down. then he finally did and we left.. to BUKIT GOMBAK.
Had lessons with Leonard.. but not very well.. Bb for an hour.. and tried acaedamic festival.. then spent another 1hr chatting.. not say useless la.. its true.. talking about himself and his jc life.. about how he tried grabbing many things - violin lessons, harmony lessons, sws, band, mep 's' paper.. and his quarrelings with gf. yeah.. he gt much more than me actually.. but i think i do spend more time with my Pam than him though.. yeah he's a real nice teacher.. thought he was gonna scold me.. but didnt. im also irritated with myself la definitely.. for rising and dropping. then he mentioned that im in the "instant noodle generation." everything needs to be instant and stuff. yeah true.. told me to quit something.. which i wanted to all along.. dont want to quit anything. cant bear to.. but i should.. or sacked sooner or later i guess.
then go paya lebar to kia chai's house for pw. then michelle and shun min both push me to do my chap 4.. so difficult.. wanna die la.. why i so stupid to choose that? at least i did the survey results.. nt bad right? <-- excuse. then after tt me kia chai and arjun played winning eleven 7 on the com.. kia chai couldnt take arjun after i thrash them 4-1 in the 1st half then he came over.. made it 9-1. and arjun lost so bitterly. so sad.. then he left while i played a couple of rounds of cs.. the mom and bro pick me up go katong ampang niang tou fu eat dinner. surprisingly im full. probably afternoon i ate lunch at about 3plus and ate alot of chips..
then now im home while my mom go casket and bro go out with fren.. home alone.. Pam just called me to express her woes.. but i dont know how to comfort her? im so bloody useless la.. as usual.. useless chow(child). lame sia.. then she said tt i dont wanna comfort her.. but is i dont noe how.. hearing her out isnt part of comfort? i dont know.. maybe it isnt.. i would like to tell all my worries and stuff to everyone but i just cant be so.. cause i scared of other ppl.. dont like pouring myself out to ppl.. dont wanna be betrayed. the feeling sucks la.. when you want to end friendship but dont bear to.. Dear Pam, I really dont know how. If only you felt happy. Actually, I think im not good enough actually. its always me who hurt her. though she's done the same to me before.. but i dont speak of my sorrows often. who cares right? feel tt sometimes she's angry with me but i dont know wads the reason. maybe i gt 9pts so high ttz why dont know. no IQ or EQ to understand. i wish i could. most of the time i just keep quiet and take the pain to myself.. its alright.. stay strong. then i guess Pam is now angry with me.. how? haiz. i wish i knew how she thinks. honestly i dont know how to satisfy her.
im supposed to drop something out of my life. Pam? no.. she's important in my life.. she helps me to grow actually.. find that ive grown more.. less conservative.friends? no.. they are important too.like them but dont spend enough time with them.. sad. band? felt like la.. but i owe to TJ Band. helped me to appeal in during 1st 3 months.. so i owe it to them though i wanna quit. so sick and pressurized.. Tuba? no.. i love it. but the feeling sucks when you've risen to a level but have to drop down to go back to basics. now i've lost what i really loved to do in the past.. but ttz alright. i think im improving.. at least. stressful.. band friends who look at me.. i know.. i play like shit now la.. i also understand. im trying though.. but the bottomline is - shit. sorry guys. YO? wanted to long ago. though now i understand his concept of pressure.. abit sian la.. jin hao is better than me. think hui hong also la. me? hai. dont noe. and of course i cant stop doing tutorials. i wanna get at least 3As for A lvls.. try la at least. ttz abt it.
now tv showing Signs.. sian1/2 show.. no link 1 la.. lame aliens.. reminds me of scary movie 3.
then chan u gt the money minded guy.. watch on chan 62 many times liao.
guess wad both my mom and leonard said is right - dont spread yourself so thinly.
"you want everything? you'll get nothing." <--- from one of leonard's ex-teacher(cant remem who).
yeah, so like me? i wanna do something bout it. but so difficult. so which is it? i dont know..
till then.. have to do chap4 and do some lame GP topic sentences shit. and tues gt f.maths test on polynomial till integration by parts. i die la. havent even touched integration by parts. and im lagging by a million years in chem and phy. see? example of how i spread so thin. wanna do everything. im too greedy. think too 'geh kiang'. i should stop this bad habit or i'll do badly for 'A' lvls with flying colours. do work already.. bye blog..
Sunday, August 14, 2005
New blog?
ah. my first blog entry. i dont know wad page is this? i hope i can see that this is my first entry? crap la. dont no one will read this blog anyway. lame chow. tired, sleepy, braindead? i'm literally worn out, exhausted, wadever u call it. so many things happened today.- NAPFA 5 items this morning at 8am.
madness. i woke up at 7.45+ and went back to slp. 7.55 woke up again and rush to wear attire, call darrell and ting zhang who never answered. then chiong downstairs heng saw a cab then took to sch. 1buck surchage think peak hr. then in the end heng on time. then 1st item was sit up, think i abit idiot. 43 for A, i did the last 3 slowly. when it was 43 i just laid there and "AH."
2nd was pull up we waited damn long and didnt realise we supposed to pass tt volley teacher our class list. then my turn i tried 2 but fail.. too heavy i know. nvr count my first 2 liao then fine stop doing and jump down. then fail with a chicken egg called zero. then nxt item shuttle run ok la. 9.7s nt my best la but ok lor.. so much time lost when i thought i gonna fall but didnt. then go standign broad jump gt 1 class cut queue super sian. then we proceed to sit and reach also wait so long.. then my turn i stretch like mad. 56cm. madness also. then top my class. abit surprised la me. then go back to jumping i failed my 1st 2 tries. derrick ong is crazy. 250+ cm. then i retry 1 last time heng heng teacher nice nice gimme 206cm. happy lo.. but still fail napfa cause of pull up. even if i pass.. i still get bronze cause of SBJ and 2.4.
- Pam and hamsters
Called her after tuition and took a long time deciding on our plans today. very long.. reach home line gt cut cause of lift no reception. argue with her ask her come my house eat but she dont want.. in the end i say if she hungry then cook. then she arrived! - with homemade ROSTI like MARCHE. its nice la i must say, seriously. i also wanna learn how to cook it soon. i used to want to be the iron chef. <-- ahah reminds me of andrew. like that lor.. then at my house she did chinese work while i ate some homemade meefen. then waste time look at hamster, watch ndp replay on tv, then in the end? 3.45! she had to go for tuition.. then i send her down tog. with hamsters.. then she left in that brown family car..
- Mailbox
looked into the mailbox so worried cause yi hern the other day said clara knew her day of exam liao. i was like praying that ABRSM letter come. and it did! so happy la no need call that bloody VCH office and talk to that irritating woman. dont like her. anyway yeah, my exam date is on the 16/9 at 4.56pm. quite lame la.. might as well put me at 5pm? then the examiners can have 4 min toilet break or something. die la i havent fix my embrochure play wad for them to hear. speaking of playing, next sat is YO's assessment with the academic overture. damn easy la. if i only settle my lips. i think im stubborn and lazy. always prac liao then nvr prac again. then sometimes nvr listen to leonard. regret alot of times but nvr learn my lesson. always thought of giving up la. you know its damn difficult to retrain your basics when u have actually reached a certain level of advancement? irritating man. i think i wanna go too fast ttz why, dont wanna be looked down at ttz why, dont wanna lose out to ppl. i know i am not bad. but i think i dont have the heart to go all the way. dont know why too. add oil to myself.
yeah.. think ttz quite some bit i guess. today my first entry. maybe abit long though. hope it gets posted? haha.. its like quite late. supposed to go do mouthpiece buzzing at least. and tml wake up early for church and meet leonard at 12pm. die la scared he scold. and spent most of the day playing shattered galaxy. my character like lvl 50 liao damn high. 2 sets of my units are max lvl liao.. hai dont know why i just said these. tired i guess, no link guy, nvr mind, say bye bye. good night blog.